Trust...

As time is winding down for the semester, my heart is all over the place. I don't know what to think about what is going on in my life. I don't know sometimes how to control my emotions as my head spins out of control of what is next to come and what will happen in the next few weeks. I find myself just wanting to yell at the top of my lungs AAAAAAHHHHHHH! Not sure what good will come of that, but it's an impulse I seem to have. There are so many question marks that come at the end of one's college career. Where has all this time gone? Did four and a half years already go by? What have I learned from all this? Was it worth it? Am I better now than when I began? What is the next step in my journey after I walk across the stage at graduation? Will I get a "real" job? Will I like being in the "real" world? Is being a "capital A" Adult really all it's cracked up to be? What is God's plan for my life? Where I am I called? How will He use me? How can I show His love to everyone I meet in the "real" world? Am I ready to be done being a college student? I find these questions and countless more spinning through my head each day. The only answer I have found to them is TRUST. Trust the Lord for He is the only one who can truly answer all these questions I have. I found myself a few weeks ago having difficulty doing just that and tears welled my eyes. I cried harder than I had in weeks and cried out to the Lord for His help. A few days later, I found a guitar and played it for the first time since camp. It brought so much peace to my spirit and I wrote this song.


Lord I TRUST You

Lord you know your will, for my life so frail, I must trust in you alone.
You oh Lord are great, you will guide my fate, I must trust in you alone.

Chorus: Trust you, Lord I trust you
Trust you, Lord I trust you

You will guide my steps, I can not regret all that you have done in me. 2x
Chorus

Your love for me is, greater than I know, Jesus be with me now. 2x
Chorus


Yesterday I received a card in the mail from a dear friend that held some very encouraging words. It was one of those things that you just thank the Lord for His perfect timing in. Those words hit my heart at the exact right time and gave me so much peace. At the ending of her letter, my friend put several verses for me to look up. The last one, the one that hit me the most was Matthew 6:33-34 which says, But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. In the moment that I read it, it felt like the Lord was tapping me on the shoulder and saying, "This is for you my child, don't worry, do what you need to do today and let me worry about the rest. Trust me daughter" So much peace came from this moment. Thank you Lord!